I hope I learn to like you

Dear Body,

 I have to get up in the morning to work out with Charity and Meaghan... This P90X is kicking my trash..  I hope at the end of this when it gets easier and everything that I like you.

Quitting Sugar is like Quitting Drugs

Dear Body, 


So I had a relapse on the sugar while in that 2 and half hour meeting we had at work on Friday... and this past weekend when I started over, because I really want this thing to work..   you paid me back with that awful migraine all weekend long.. I felt like pooh on a summer day... Today nothing is going right at work.. and I broke down and cried in Becky's office. She gave me a hug and prescribed a piece of candy as the cure for my feelings... I feel so sick.. Have I ever felt this rotten before... oh yeah, I remember.. when I quit doing drugs.. thanks body for the reminder to stay sober.. I mean after all these years I would've forgotten had my face not been in the toilet on Sunday because the migraine was so bad... I couldn't even keep meds down.. I would like to now remind you that not having sugar is a good thing.  I don't want to feel sick anymore.. or hypersensitive ...this needs to end..


Me

It's WAY past your bed time

Dear Body,

 you stayed up way past your bed time to chat with Evan, don't you dare put up a fight when you have to wake up in four and a half hours to work out... I won't stand for it. It's called a natural consequence...

No Sugar.. That's right, I'm nuts

Dear Body,

I'm not going to say that I'm sorry for giving up sugar yesterday. I mean seriously, do we really need it? I'm not going to apologize for making you workout yesterday too, although today my abs and core hurt something fierce, the pain is just a sign that we worked hard ( I know I cheated a bit and didn't do all 3 hundred and something core and ab exercises) The pain won't last long, and the headache from withdrawal from soda and sugar will be gone after a few more days.  Until then I would like to thank who ever invented Excedrin Migraine for my headache, My doctor for the prescription  strength Ibuprofen and who ever came up with Icelandic Glacial Water, because that water is dang delicious and so worth the money for the largest bottle.

5:30 am

Dear Body,

don't you dare complain about having to get up this morning to work out.. You didn't seem to mind until we got to Charity's and actually started working out. It's for your own good. We needed the workout and the quality time with Charity, so get ready, we're doing it again tomorrow... remember a few years ago when you two worked out every morning at the gym? Well, that was the best time of your life, and you've let yourself go.. so back on track.. in a few weeks you'll be use to it and it won't hurt so much.. SUCK IT UP!

laters,
Me

YUCK YUCK YUCK

Dear Body,

 I'm looking at the pictures of the fun I had this summer that my friends have tagged me in on FaceBook.. Good Heck, have my boobs gotten bigger, or is that just me.. Oh YUCK, it appears that I want to make another appointment with the plastic surgeon.. how dare they get bigger after having one procedure, I am NOT destined to have large breast my whole life.. I will not stand for that.. nope

ME, no love..
just me...

a long day at work....

Dear Body,

I acknowledge the fact that if I go to bed at 2am when I have to be at work at 8am, I’m going to be VERY  tired from having to wake up, no later than 6:30am.. but,  how about we make a deal.  Let me get through this day without falling asleep, and I’ll put myself to  bed early tonight. I swear.

- LOVE ME

All Caught up... a regular posting blog of all my body chats to come..

So, I send my notes to my body to my friends.. And I have failed to post them on this, my body journals, so pardon the rambling, but I am catching up on all those texts so I can have these journal entries in order from now on…. I’m sharing my life and my thoughts in these.. Sometimes I’m funny, sometimes not so much.. But I love the opportunity to be honest..Oh Gosh.. I’ve leaving myself completely exposed…

Dear Body,

I was just told by my French Uncle ( for some sort of explanation as to why he would say this to me, I want you to know it’s because he’s foreign and sometime foreigners say off the wall things) Uncle Deacon said that I should hurry up and settle down, because I am not getting any younger… How do you feel about that Body?

Yeah, I know – Me

( Um so it hurt my feelings a little bit to say the least…)

Dear Body,

My eyes are my best feature, so regardless if I spend the night crying, I’d appreciate it  if you wouldn’t make them look so puffy and YUCK!! Thanks

Love Me

Dear Body,

I didn’t mean to stick those earplugs so far in, but HOT DANG that band was piercing my ear drums, so I just thought that you would be more appreciative..

Sorry, ME

Dear Body,

I loosened all my extensions, can my headache go away NOW please ? Sincerely, Me

Dear Body,

I’ve been meaning to talk to you about the large amounts of hair that I see on the shower floor when I give it a good washing.. I mean the mass amounts of  hair I lose every time are starting to negatively affect me. I feel like I’m going through Chemo.. CUT IT OUT!!

 I don’t want to be bald headed,  me

Dear Body,

I know you’re really tired, but you only have 3 more hours of work left. YOU CAN DO IT !

Dear Body,

I DON’T  appreciate the fight you put up this morning when we needed to get out of bed.. THANKS TO YOU, I was late for work, and now that I’m here.. I don’t even want to do anything. You really need to cut that  nonsense out! I’m not playing with you!

Dear Body,

This guy in his truck on his cell phone for crying out loud, almost hit me. If I didn’t have so much going this weekend I would have let him do it, cause with the current laws I’m pretty sure I would have gotten a big pay out. I can’t believe it has come to this…

Love Me

Dear Body,

As I get older, I notice that there are more areas that need tending to.. Oh, a wax here, pluck there, nip here, tuck there.. Remind me why I’m doing this again? Please let me know.

Me

Dear Body,

Does IBS meant that every time you’re irritable , I’m not going to have a bowl movement. I mean so we can suffer more than one way… Cause that’s a GREAT idea . – Me

Dear Body,

I probably shouldn’t have eaten a whole bag of grapes.. Just saying I’m sorry… Love Me

Oh Dear Body,

I was walking back from lunch and I saw my reflection in the window.. OD GOOD GAWL, my booty is HUGE .. I need to work on that .. Me

Dear Body,

It’s pretty much a guarantee that if I say I need to go potty, and I don’t go within at least 5 minutes, I  may have a tiny accident.. About that, when did you downsize my bladder?

Yeah, Me

Grateful

(Jan 2010)

I was at the Center for Change in Orem, UT one day, and as I sat in the lobby while I waited I was listening to the music being played over the PA. I love music and when it’s good, it stirs up emotion and thought, and on this day it did. I thought about being grateful. I thought about how my life in a few months had changed so much, and I pondered over all the changes that had happened and were happening in my life….and I’m so grateful. I’m grateful that things have a purpose even when I don’t know what the purpose is. Grateful that I’ve  learned a lot even the cost of learning was a lot more than I felt I had in me, and even when it hurt as often times it did, and it does still hurt… but never the less, I’m grateful.

don't be pissed

Dear Body,

I hope that you don't mind all the reconstruction that is going on..I just thought that some areas could use some major remodeling...


Love me

May 14, 2010

Nightmares!!

Dear Body,



I PROMISE to never again have a peanut butter and jam sandwich late at night if you promise never again to make me have bad dreams that were probably the result of the peanut butter and jam sandwich. Can we make that deal please...

love me

Tummy Ache

Dear Body,

It's been days again since my last bowel movement.. is that another sign of old age.. my tummy hurts.

you suck

me
5/13/2010

later that day.....

Dear Body, you sent my period a week and half early ( seriously, thanks for that gift) but what I really want is a bowel movement, cause I'm getting irritable.

thanks,
me

moving on and leaving the baggage

" Deeper wounds need longer to heal than little scratches"

Dear Body,

I'm sorry for not listening to my head and doing what my heart thought it wanted to do. The mind was right when it told me to take a step back and remember what I really wanted, and not waste my time on someone who didn't want to give me that... bruises will heal and tears will dry up.. and heart, that too will heal. Not every ending is bad, and not all time was wasted.. lessons were learned even if they've been taught a hundred different times.. I finally passed the final and moved on to the next level...

love me

5/12/2010

Playing Pretend

I heard a quote once that said, " We become so accustomed to the disguises we put on to others, that in the end we become disguises to ourselves"

Dear Body,
 Sometimes I put a mask on. It's my happy mask, I put it on and pretend that everything is grand and wonderful when in reality I want something different. Something COMPLETELY different from what I've got.. that's awful huh?  oh what it would be like if  I never had to put that mask on again. If  I could just be 100% me all the time, everyday. Oh gosh how wonderful it would be to not have to force a smile, fake a laugh, or hide a tear.. what would life be like then.

-me

05/10/2010

My Best Feature

My eyes are my best feature. My one beauty.. wait, I have an amazing laugh so I've been told. I actually created my infectious laugh myself.  One day I was laughing and thought that I sounded like someone who I don't really enjoy, so I changed it. I made a laugh that is all  my own. I've been told that I have freakishly abnormally soft skin, not that anyone was complaining, but I must admit, sometimes it weirds me out to have people touching me in awe of my how soft it is. (* Note, I love moisturizer ) People have also commented on my smile, but I hate my teeth, I've never needed braces until now.. nevertheless, you'll see me smiling a lot. I stutter when I'm dehydrated and get a headache when my hair is dirty. I don't care for my feet, but they help me get from one place to another with the help of my legs.I have a birthmark on my left arm that my old soccer coach once said was where I happened to run out of paint cause it's so light and the rest of me is brown. I have matching scars on my wrist from surgeries that I've had on them.. I tell people that I got them busting free of handcuffs.( people fall for it all the time) My eyes are my best feature, I like them the most, they're dark brown almost coal looking and I've been told they look lighter to darker based on my mood. I don't have crows feet and you can't even tell when I'm tired cause they're always bright... I love my eyes...it's the other stuff that needs help Body...

Love ME